Kindergarten Fun

Do you still remember the first time you stepped in your school? I remembered I woke up very early and very excited.

Going to my classroom, my sister accompanied and not to forget she said " if someone bullies you, tell me". That's my over-protective sister. I sat at the middle front row to make sure I can see my teacher. I had classmates who were crying the whole time simply because they want also their mommy to sit beside them. But me, I just had my sister who carried my trolly then she left going to her class. I was brave enough to be left there. After my class, I just waited inside my classroom for my sister to arrive. No crying and tantrums. I felt that time I was a big girl already.

Well, the rest of my kindergarten days were really fun. In fact, I remembered it was all playing and eating with my classmates. Although, I also have my share of fights with girls as well as boys. Hence, principal office was like a second classroom to me. But inspite of it, I was still able to receive academic awards during our graduation. When we had our annual book, I had a picture there jumping on top of the crossed arms of two of my classmates while the rest of the class were watching my balleting jump. Reminiscing that time, I voluteered to do the stunt first. Well, I believe I was already confident of myself.

It's fun to remember those times and feel to be a child again. I am proud to say, I really do have a happy childhood. My parents exposed us to different arts and sports for us to be sociable and meet new friends. How about you? How was your kindergarten days?

Heart Pains

Being in-love is the greatest thing that God must have given to us. It expresses the real you and practicing to be selfless just to please the other person.

It's been a while not entertaining of being in-love. I always have the excuses of workload and so many friends around me. Hence, I totally took for granted of returning back the admirations of other people given to me. Also, the heart itself has forgotten too to open and be alive.

A couple of male friends tend to be "extra" nice and expressing their feelings toward me including this guy that I have been seeing for the last 5 years. Through the years, we've been close but no commitment I should say. Eventually, I learned to open my heart again and returned back the admirations to him. Honestly, it was a great feeling and I was glad that I realized I am a normal being again. Unfortunately, things turned out sour when I accidentally found out that this person that I'm beginning to love is also seeing others not just one but two (I guess more). I initially felt numb and ashamed of myself for why I allowed this thing to happen. I want to cry but I can't. I want to nag him but I didn't. I want to throw his mobile phone but I preferred to pretend that I don't know anything about his being a "great lover". I guess, the reason why I'm doing this is a little pride of mine is controlling to keep myself sane and take things objectively. Well, that's being a princess ;-)

Again, my heart still feel pains. With so much of it as if it will going to burst. But then again, I keep things to myself. He's still around being nice...but no thanks. I guess that he doubts now why suddenly I'm too busy for him. One day, when I'm ready and has put everything in me in proper places, I'll confront him without a blink of an eye... but now, pains are still running around my heart and trying to freeze it just not feel the pains.